Damian MIXTAPE

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about

"Damian" is a concept mixtape that follows the character Damian as he goes in and out of an institution because he doesn't believe that he is crazy. As the story goes on he begins to feel like he's losing touch of reality and blames the institution, so he tries to seek revenge. As the story comes to a close he realizes that he truly is insane.

"Foreign Tongues" Video
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credits

released August 18, 2014

Cover Photography: Sarah Miller
Lyrics/Vocals: Christopher Lauretti

INSTRUMENTAL CREDITS:
1) MattyMcdaddy - Introders - Intro Song ( Metalcore )
2) MattyMcdaddy - Cinnamon Life - Original Song
3) MattyMcdaddy - Rub a Dub Scrub - Intro song ( Original song )
4) MattyMcdaddy - D-U-C-K - Metalcore Instrumental.
5) Dinosaurs Like Guccipants
6) MattyMcdaddy - Instrumetal Productions - XanaX ( Djent Instrumental )
7) Sworn In – Mute
8) MattyMcdaddy - Space Bar - Agile 8 String Djent Original
9) Dinosaurs Like Guccipants – Panic Attack !!!
10) Dinosaurs Like Guccipants – Panic Attack !!!
11) Chelsea Grin - My Damnation - Instrumental Cover

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Track Name: Deranged
I don't think I'm insane
But I can't stand being plain
They put me in here to change
Cause they think I'm deranged
They think that it's strange
I lock myself inside my house
And set it ablaze
If I have to live a life without meaning
You best believe I will always be scheming
To find a way that is more freeing
Me staying alive, you must be dreaming
I hear voices, see things that are not there
Tell me how the fuck living is so fair
Wait, tell me after I grab the noose and chair
To find a way that is more freeing
Me staying alive, you must be dreaming


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti
Track Name: Beneath The Skin
Verse:
I will take my blade
I will slit your throat
I feel your skin tighten as you loose hope
I will surgically remove your skin with a grin
I will wear your skin as a suit
They will never find me if they think I'm you
I feel your skin tighten as you loose hope
I will surgically remove your skin with a grin
I will wear your skin as a suit
They will never find me if they think I'm you

Chorus:
I don't feel right in the skin I'm in
I try and try but I can never win
I can't get comfort no matter what I do
That's why I cut you open and try to be you

Verse:
I can't breath at night
I try and try to fight
You can't convince me that this feeling is right
Even in the day I can never see the light
Because my skin just feels too tight
Become someone else, I just might

Chorus:
I don't feel right in the skin I'm in
I try and try but I can never win
I can't get comfort no matter what I do
That's why I cut you open and try to be you

Bridge:
It feels like I'm told I don't belong
By the body I had for so long
And no I was never strong
But I still know that this feeling is wrong
I feel them crawling
There still crawling
Beneath my skin

Chorus:
I don't feel right in the skin I'm in
I try and try but I can never win
I can't get comfort no matter what I do
That's why I cut you open and try to be you

Outro:
I feel them crawling
There still crawling
Beneath my skin
I see them as they consume me
I guess they will never find my body


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti
Track Name: Chelsea Grin
Chorus:
I killed her and I'd do it again
They never found her, I'd call that win
I cut her wide open right below her chin
I should have cut her face wide open
With a fucking Chelsea grin

Verse:
Nasty little whore could never keep her mouth shut
She would always act surprised when they called her a slut
What!?
No one can her you with your mouth full of dick
The thought of your pussy makes everyone sick

Verse:
She was a liar, She was a disease
She spread her legs for any man that could still breath
She was a selfish ratchet whore who no one grieves
She was a coward, always pretending to be brave
Now that cunt can eat shit in her grave

Chorus:
I killed her and I'd do it again
They never found her, I'd call that win
I cut her wide open right below her chin
I should have cut her face wide open
With a fucking Chelsea grin
X2


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti
Track Name: Cured or Cursed
Verse:
They sent me home
Cause they said I was saved
They sent me home
Cause they said I was cured
I took all my meds
And I did what they said
The world still looks the same
And I still feel the same

Verse:
I'm not motivated and I'm not happy
Nothing is at all the way they said it'd be
I shut the curtains and rip the cord from the telephone
The room stays black and I feel so fucking alone
This isn't my home
And I feel twice as suicide prone

Verse:
What did they do to me in there
I felt fine before but now I feel insane
I'm starting to forget my name
Was this all a fucking game
They took my life away
But what the fuck did they gain

Verse:
Life is a razor cutting deep into my skin
Again and again I can never fucking win
Am I cured or am I fucking cursed
All I know is I need to quench this thirst

Verse:
I'm not motivated and I'm not happy
Nothing is at all the way they said it'd be
I shut the curtains and rip the cord from the telephone
The room stays black and I feel so fucking alone
This isn't my home
And I feel twice as suicide prone

Verse:
Life is a razor cutting deep into my skin
Again and again I can never fucking win
Am I cured or am I fucking cursed
All I know is I need to quench this thirst

Verse:
They sent me home
Cause they said I was saved
They sent me home
Cause they said I was cured
I took all my meds
And I did what they said
The world still looks the same
And I still feel the same

I'm not motivated and I'm not happy
Nothing is at all the way they said it'd be


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti
Track Name: Release
Verse:
They won't let me out
Because I'm a danger to myself and everyone else
Fuck
I need an escape
All this medication
I keep forgetting what I'm saying
Now I need help
So I make friends with the demons under my bed
I make friends with the demons inside of my head

Verse:
Everyday is on repeat, I have no release
These white walls are staring at me
These ceilings are talking to me
Pills are my family until I swallow
It's no fucking wonder I'm so god damn hollow
X2

Verse:
I'm chasing ghost down these halls
Reality slips away as the time falls
I don't think I'm ever leaving
Because it feels like it's been a year
It's only been a day, now I'm drenched in fear

Verse:
They won't let me out
Because I'm a danger to myself and everyone else
Fuck
I need an escape
All this medication
I keep forgetting what I'm saying
Now I need help
So I make friends with the demons under my bed
I make friends with the demons inside of my head
X2


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti
Track Name: Demon Eyes
Verse:
I can't close my eyes at night
In fear of losing sight
My phobias grip my life so tight
This isn't fucking right
This isn't fucking right
Demons were once friends in my head
Now they want me to die, they wanna see me dead

Chorus:
I close my eyes,
I see demons in my head
There griping at my bed
I can't stop hearing what they said
All this bull shit I was fed
I just want to be dead
I just want this to end

Verse:
I cross my heart and hope to die
I stick this open cringe into my eye
But no matter what I try
I can't kill these demons inside
The only thing left to do is try to remain calm
I'm only along for the ride

Chorus:
I close my eyes,
I see demons in my head
There griping at my bed
I can't stop hearing what they said
All this bull shit I was fed
I just want to be dead
I just want this to end

Bridge:
To my demons I'm nothing but a host
To this life I am nothing but a ghost

Chorus:
I close my eyes,
I see demons in my head
There griping at my bed
I can't stop hearing what they said
All this bull shit I was fed
I just want to be dead
I just want this to end

Bridge:
I take my pills and make a toast
Sleep or sanity I don't know what I need most


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti
Track Name: Underground
Verse:
I'm hearing shapes and I'm seeing sounds
It only happens when nobody's around
I'm back inside these four white walls
Doctors and nurses waiting in the halls
I get no letters and nobody calls
My stomach doesn't drop, it fucking free falls

Chorus:
I swear, every time I talk
It's like I'm puking out dirt
They put me in this jacket
So tight, I can feel every bone hurt
They buried me above ground
But still, I know I will never be found

Verse:
I awake in random rooms
Sleeping in different tombs
I want kill the ones that made me this way
So I guess I'll have to play along for my stay
Wait seamlessly for the perfect opportunity
Not too long cause this place is fucking killing me

Bridge:
I need to plan it out with no mistakes
They must pay for what this place takes
I will set this place on fire so that no one leaves
I want to kill them
Bury them deep underground

Chorus:
I swear, every time I talk
It's like I'm puking out dirt
They put me in this jacket
So tight, I can feel every bone hurt
They buried me above ground
But still, I know I will never be found

Verse:
I awake in random rooms
Sleeping in different tombs
I want kill the ones that made me this way
So I guess I'll have to play along for my stay
Wait seamlessly for the perfect opportunity
Not too long cause this place is fucking killing me

Bridge:
I need to plan it out with no mistakes
They must pay for what this place takes
I will set this place on fire so that no one leaves
I want to kill them
Bury them deep underground


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti
Track Name: Coming To Terms
Verse:
I'm watching it burn as it comes to the ground
From the outside I hear every sound
All the people screaming brings joy to me
I've come to terms with my insanity
But I am just the psycho they made me
But deep down I always knew I was always crazy

Verse:
The cops brought me in for questioning about a fire
The put me in a room they asked me if I'm a liar
Then they play the tape of the night prior
We watched me commit the crime
They looked at me and asked why
Turns out I was by myself the whole time
Everything was all a vivid dream
I don't know what's a lie and what's real life
So I slit my own throat with the closest knife

Verse:
I'm watching it burn as it comes to the ground
From the outside I hear every sound
All the people screaming brings joy to me

I've come to terms with my insanity
But I am just the psycho they made me
But deep down I always knew I was always crazy
X2

Outro:
There is no they it's just me
I am the psycho I was meant to be


Lyric Credit: Christopher Lauretti