Intro:
I am trapped between vices and virtues
In the end which do I choose
No one is ever happy with what they got
Be grateful
Because tomorrow you might not
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Verse:
Every time I take a sip
My filter begins to slip
Ringing out my inner thoughts
As my liver begins to rot
Living life with your vices
Isn't life it's fucking lifeless
I am not all I can be
My soul is fucking empty
I am selfish and flawed
But I still don't need god

Chorus:
Everywhere I go, this black cloud follows me
It pulls to me like gravity
Marking me, for everyone to see
That I have fucked up constantly

This isn't life, this isn't real
I need you to tell me how to feel
This is a story, this is a dream
Nothing is ever what it seems

Save me from myself
Save me from myself

Verse:
I live like I have something to prove to myself
How can I overcome myself
I thought I was better then this
How do I discover my own bliss

With every swig I take
I make far more then one mistake
I can't control myself
Let alone my actions
I can see my life
Dividing into fractions
I can see in my family
Whisky just makes us angry

Chorus:
Everywhere I go, this black cloud follows me
It pulls to me like gravity
Marking me, for everyone to see
That I have fucked up constantly

This isn't life, this isn't real
I need you to tell me how to feel
This is a story, this is a dream
Nothing is ever what it seems

Verse:
But it makes me feel free
Freedom from the world
That surrounds me
I know one day I will make the choice
Between freedom and family
I know now more then ever
Family is everything to me
Because family brings me safety
And this bottles fucking empty
For every step forward
I take two steps back
I get hung up on the things I lack
Every sip, every swig
Helps me to forget
I'm trying to learn
Not to live in regret
I hold myself up to the mirror
I am a coward

Closer
Who runs from everything
When I look in to the mirror
I don't see anything
I smash my fist through the glass
My lacerations may not last
But my demons will never pass
Will never pass